I cannot wait to get out of here. I'm sick of school, and my family, and just the monotony of it all. It's just a repeating pattern I do not wish to keep pursuing. I want out. I want to live. Do things I love to do, become what I aspire to be, and most of all, just be free. Free of their rules, their restrictions, their fighting, their nonsense, their control, and all of this that just makes me so sick. I have so much I want to do in life, but under this house, under their 'authority,' I can't pursue any of it. It's not fair. They all prance around doing whatever they desire, but I can't even do anything enthralling because they put so much effort into themselves that they can't stand to help me achieve my goals. I'm stuck here. In this pattern. Just floating on by waiting for my chance to spring free and live my life. Live A life. A life worth living, worth exploring, and worth what I want and need. But until then, I'm stuck. In this pattern. And it just keeps going, and going, and going. Never breaking, never changing. I need new, I need interesting, I need adventurous, I need exciting, I need creativity and I need what makes me happy. And it's not here. And it will never be here. Same pattern, same setting, same need to escape and explore the always different me.